WHY HAS CURT’S TONE CHANGED?

—“I don’t know if it’s just me but your tone and presentation (I almost said style, but that’s not it) have changed dramatically in the last week or so from what I observed as dramatically consistent for the last few months since I started following you.”—Daniel Anderson

You know, I have very low self awareness which is why I think about it in order to try to. Me, I don’t notice much other than it’s harder or easier to make arguments and write code. lol I work around the clock and that’s it.

I think, if you will forgive me for over-sharing, that I while I don’t ever feel ‘depressed’ in any material sense, that I was having some sort of depression from the stress of the past two years, and I think I must have gotten over it at the end of last month, and I can see it in my writing and in my code. My subconscious is less exhausted and frustrated. And I have room for empathy where I had no emotional reserves before then. So I can write with a bit of feeling now. I think that’s what you and others are noticing.

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